I really suck.

I really suck about writing about this pregnancy. I apologize in advance sweet pea! I want to write about it. Really, I do. I want to remember everything about this pregnancy. It's just... for some reason I don't write about it.

Carl got to feel our sweet girl kick for the first time on Sunday. We were 18w6d. My baby is a genius, I swear! I had just drank a hot chocolate latte (I'm trying to have some things move in my bowel region, lol). About 20 minutes later she started kicking me to DEATH. Literally, every 2-3 minutes I was kicked. I left my hand on the spot she was kicking, and about 15 minutes after she started kicking, I felt it with my hand. I automatically yelled for Carl, and he came in and put his hand where mine had been. Moments later, he got to feel her kick! It was beautiful and breathtaking.

He's leaving on Friday and will be gone for two weeks. I'm really not happy about this, but I know he's looking forward to the trip. He'll be back on KCU's campus for a week, and then traveling all over Ohio, performing each night for the next week. It's a group through Kentucky Christian University, called Servants. It's absolutely wonderful, and a great opportunity for high schoolers who are interested in vocal music. I did it for 3 years in high school. Carl did it as a "Destiny" member (the 10-12 college members who help with the high schoolers) last year and loved it. Even though he's not going to be a student at KCU in the fall, Dr. Deakins invited him to help with Servants. He's excited. I'm just worried.... I don't think I would mind nearly as much if I weren't pregnant. He's having to miss the 20 week ultrasound... and we can't video tape it like we could at the other doctors... He's only got to see her live and in person at the gender ultrasound that they did at 18 weeks, and it was very, very short.

I know it's irrational to be scared about him going to Servants, but I am anyway. I wish he had been able to be at more appointments. I'm scared that his classes will begin to interfere in August, and I've only got one (boring) appointment in between the 20 week ultrasound and my August appointment.

I'm starting on my summer course for college. If all goes well, this should be my last college class EVER. I'm so freaking excited. It's "Introduction to Philosophy" though, and I'm already struggling. I'm much more mathematically minded. I rock at trigonometry. I rock at physics. I suck at anything theoretical. I also feel like I'm just as good of a Christian without knowing all these 'theories' than I would be if I knew them. They make my head spin, and honestly, I feel like they are complete and total crap.

This is what I get for being a Humanities major though, one of its concentrations is supposed to BE philosophy. I'm scraped by that one, thankyouverymuch.

Speaking of my summer class...that's what I'm supposed to be doing right now. My darling husband is taking me to the movies this afternoon to see "Up!". I'm excited to go out with him, just not as excited that it's a movie. Last time we went to this theater I froze to death. It was frigid. I'm taking a blanket this time.

Shaina