Saturday, February 28, 2009

A change.... will do you good now...

EDIT: Anyone know why my header isn't working? It's REAL pretty...

Ah, change is in the air.

Or, ahem, at least on the blog.

Like the new look? I'm not big on lime green...the last layout was just the only one I could find that had three columns.

I need to work on the header some, no?

Promise, a post of substance is coming soon. It's going to reflect my reaction (and common ground) of L.'s post.

New background, new siggy.

Friday, February 27, 2009

I know, I'm a horrible person.

Wow. I haven't blogged since Monday. Really though, it wasn't my fault.

I woke up on Tuesday around 6-7 and had to run throw up. I assumed it was the Mcdonalds I had eaten the night before, and went back to bed. I got up at 8:45 to get ready for class... and threw up again. This time, I wasn't so sure it was the Mcdonalds, and went back to bed a second time. I got up at 11 am to take Phenagren, and ended up in the bathroom having, ahem, problems from the other end. That's when Carl called the parents of the baby I sit for and told them I couldn't babysit that day. I went back to bed.

Basically, excluding when I was on the toilet, or the 1 hour I got up to try and eat some soup and watch NCIS...I was in bed, asleep. I seriously think I slept 20 hours on Tuesday. I threw up 4 times, everything I ate came back up and hour or so later. I was in the bathroom a LOT. I ran a fever for about an hour at 11 PM that night.

At one point, I was semi-awake, and I had Carl bring me my laptop and the first season of Lois & Clark: The New Adventures of Superman. I managed to watch an episode and a half before the nacrolepsy took over again.

THEN I woke up on Wednesday, still a little nauseous but with a POUNDING headache. We're off for school yesterday and today for Winter Break, and planned on coming up to the in-laws. With that headache though, I couldn't think, let alone contemplate a 3 hour car ride, then 3 nephews once we got to the in-laws. Plus, I wanted to make sure I was completely over my bug before I got around my darling nephews. So, we stayed at my parents house. I was in misery. Everytime I moved my head I felt like my brain was bouncing off of the inside. It. Was. Miserable. I was going to just send Carl to his parents when I got up the next morning.

But, I awoke Thursday morning a new human being. No headache. No throwing up. So, after a visit to the chiropractor (retching makes your body do weird things...) we were off! We spent all day yesterday with the boys and their mom and Carl's inlaws...and now I'm sitting in the kitchen, typing this post! I'm the only one in the house right now, well, Carl's still in bed, but other than that... And I'm about to fix some cereal and flip through some channels...or maybe try reading some more Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy.

I'm back, and posting regularly, I promise!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Not me! Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Goodness sakes alive. I have definitely not spent the last hour, when I should have been doing homework, staring at my computer screen, looking up different websites. Nope, not me!

I also didn't pray that I wouldn't have to work today, and took a large amount of homework, then almost cried when they showed me the stack of papers to grade... Nope, not me!

I also didn't cry when I got a small package in the mail today from my best friend. Nope, not me!

I didn't leave all of today's dishes, as well as the dinner dishes in the sink, nor do I plan on leaving them there until sometime tomorrow so I can do my homework... nope, not me!

I'm most certainly not sitting here, yawning, and wondering how this paper is going to get written... nope, not me!

I did not spend the entire weekend daydreaming about seeing my adorable nephews... not me!

I definitely didn't wait for my 8 month old niece to get over her temper tantrum before giving her the bottle that she didn't drink... I also didn't grumble about the fact that she was drinking strawberry milk at 8months... nope, not me!

I definitely didn't make fried corn for dinner tonight, even though it takes all health aspects away from the corn... nope, not me!

And, finally, I am most certainly not excited that I only have 3 days of class this week, NOPE! not me!

Head over to MckMama's site and read some of the other posts... or better yet, write your own!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Shaina's Superb Sal-lad.

Okay, you have to be a Spongebob fan to get that title.

Anyway. For the past 2 weeks, I have had a salad of my creation probably at least 3 times a week. It seriously is the best thing EVER. Next week I'll take a picture, as I'm out of spinach and baby carrots so I won't be having one tomorrow :( But, I thought I would blog the recipe so that all of you could enjoy the wonders of it as well!

You need:
1-2 handfuls baby spinach (this depends on how much you want to eat)
1-2 handfuls of coleslaw mix that is NOT dressed (so, cabbage and carrots basically)
10-12 baby carrots
1 handful of brocelli
2 tablespoons dressing of your choice
1 handful of Shaina's secret croutons.

I take the baby spinach and the coleslaw mix and toss it in a small mixing bowl. Then I take the brocelli and pull it apart so that you don't get any BIG bites of it, but get a little bit in each bite. I slice up the baby carrots in very small bites as well. I toss all of this, and then toss 2 tablespoons of ranch dressing into it as well. I top it with my secret ingredient.

My husband LOVES Snyder's brand Hot Wing's flavored pretzels. I don't like them by themselves, but good HEAVENS they are good on a salad! They come in little bite sized pieces, but they aren't really uniform in size... so one bit you'll get a little flavor, and the next you'll get a huge bite. Plus, where they're pretzels, they're actually better for you than croutons! And, I think they have a much better flavor as well!

So there you have, Shaina's Superb Sal-lad. I promise, it's mouth watering! I call it my rabbit food lunch! haha!

I'm off to do something productive. I have an assignment due today, and my professor just told me that my last assignment wasn't what he I have to redo it.

Oh well, I'll live!

Grey's tonight! Woohoo! Anyone else watch it? Liz, you coming over?

Insomnia... why do you bless me with your presence again?

It's 2:15 in the morning, and I am not sleepy.

I got up at 9ish this morning, so it's not as if I slept in late. I have class at 9:20 tomorrow morning...well, this morning, and I don't know how I'm going to get up. But I know if I went to lay down right now, I'd just be staring at the ceiling.

Something I may not have mentioned before is that I (as well as the majority of my family) has fibromyalgia. Wikipedia defines Fibro as...

Fibromyalgia, meaning muscle and connective tissue pain (also referred to as FM or FMS), is a disorder classified by the presence of chronic widespread pain and a heightened and painful response to gentle touch (tactile allodynia).[1] Other core features of the disorder include debilitating fatigue, sleep disturbance, and joint stiffness. In addition, persons affected by the disorder frequently experience a range of other symptoms that involve multiple body systems, including difficulty with swallowing,[2] functional bowel and bladder abnormalities,[3] difficulty breathing,[4] diffuse sensations of numbness and tingling (non-dermatomal paresthesia),[5] abnormal motor activity (i.e. nocturnal myoclonus, sleep bruxism),[6] and cognitive dysfunction.[7] An increased prevalence of affective and anxiety-related symptoms is also well known.[8] While the criteria for such an entity have not yet been thoroughly developed, the recognition that fibromyalgia involves more than just pain has led to the frequent use of the term "fibromyalgia syndrome".[9] Not all affected persons experience all the symptoms associated with the greater syndrome.

Huh, didn't know half that stuff! I have never been officially diagnosed, but I have all the symptoms that goes along with it. Both my Mom and my Uncle have it, along with a lot of other members on my Mom's side.

So what does having Fibro mean?

It means pain. It means being or getting tired very quickly. It means intolerance to hot or cold. In talking to my Mom today, I decided on a theory... when the weather changes, our bodies can't cope as quickly. Mom and I, living an hour and a half apart, have both been having difficulty getting warm. I chill so easily it's not funny. This morning, I was asking Carl what the temperature outside was, and he responded "It was comfortable" and I go "Comfortable for you, or for me?" and he goes "I have to dress you like a baby. If I'm comfortable, you have to have 1-2 more layers on." This would make sense if I were skinny, but I am most certainly NOT a skinny minny.

Fibro also includes extraordinarily sore muscles and fibrospots (that's a very technical term coined by my mom and I). There are certain spots on your body, mine are mainly my back and legs, but Mom has them on her arms as well,that if you are touched there when you're having a fibro attack, you literally feel an electric shock go throughout your entire body. We have cats back at Mom's house, and I swear to you, they have Fibro sensors. They can find those spots and manage to step on them with ALL their little cat weight and make mom and I scream. I think they enjoy it.

Mom and I manage our fibro pain with ibuprofen and a skeletal muscle relaxer entitled "Skelaxin." It's not a muscle relaxer that weirds you out, it merely relaxes your skeletal muscles. Mom also takes a non-narcotic pain killer when her's is really bad. I seem to get a lot more joint pain with my attacks than Mom does with hers, which I think comes from my abnormally loose tendons and ligaments.

Carl and I probably conceived Peanut around October 2ndish last year. On October 9th, I "threw" my back out worse than I ever have before and took an humongous amount of pain killers and muscle relaxers in the course of the next week. I had no idea I was pregnant, and on top of Skelaxin and Ibuprofen, I took a ton of Tylenol with Codeine. I KNOW that the miscarriage was in no way my fault, but I am trying to ween myself off all drugs. When I was pregnant and had an attack, I was literally in h-e-l-l. There were many days I would come back from class and just cry. I hurt so bad all over and I was so tired I felt like breathing took to much effort. What was hardest was that I would normally pop some pills, and viola! Everything would be bearable.

I'm trying to wean myself off everything I can. I also have a skin condition, which I THINK is called atopic dermatitis. It's a build up of histamine under the skin. If my arm starts itching, and I scratch it... it doesn't stop itching, it just spreads. Very quickly this will drive you insane. Whatever is itching breaks into raised welts. I also get those raised welts from clothes and, well, anything that touches my skin, really... It is very, very annonying. Once I found out I was pregnant, I stopped taking that medicine as well... and that was also a HORRIBLE ordeal. So, I'm trying to wean myself off that as well.

Neither of these are easy. Every night I take a HUGE handful of pills, but none of them are harmful to my body. I take a prenatal vitamin, a magnesium tablet (that helps the fibro and your bowels), a soil based mineral (pro-biotic) and 8, count them 8, vegetable fiber tablets. I still have bowel issues.

Well, It's 2:44 now, and I feel a tiny bit sleepy. I'm going to take some children's benadryl, and try and get some sleep. Cross your fingers I make it up for class in the morning!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

ALMOST Wordless Wednesday

My dinner, in pictures.

The good stuff...the bad is yet to come...

You take your wonton wrapper...

You add some cream cheese...

Then some jelly/jam (I don't recommend this particular brand...)

Or.... some chocolate chips. Put egg on the corners...

Fold over...

Put in uber hot corn oil (or, another good oil...)

Let them get nice and golden brown...

Don't burn your pinkie finger...

Top with powder sugar... and enjoy.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


I watch a lot of shows on TLC. I am obsessed with John and Kate Plus Eight along with 17 and Counting and an occasional Little People, Big World. I also watch 10 Years Younger, and well, anything else that seems interesting.

Lately however, there is a commercial on there by Gerber that makes me cry every time I see it.

It really is a good commercial...its just that I never got to do any of those things with my baby.It talks about how "I pledge to take you as my child, to love you, to care for you, etc"

It hurts every time I watch it. It's rough, trying to move on yet never forget.

Alright, I'm watching the 17 & Counting special, where they are on a mission trip to El Salvador, and I'm already in tears... so I'm going to attempt to not bawl through it, take a shower, and hit the hay. I feel horrible, and definitely need sleep!

Monday, February 16, 2009


Ah, this is what happens when someone gets me on my soap box. I don't even have to be mad, I just happen to be obsessed passionate about certain things.

I have been reading Devin's blog, for a little while now. She posted about her son's schooling, and I commented. I invited her that if she had any questions, to please let me know. She emailed me the following questions:


Thank you so much for offering to help! I promise....if I have any questions, I will send them your way!

On that do YOU feel about being homeschooled? Did you feel like you were cheated out of a "normal" school experience? Did you miss the "socialization" that everyone talks about homeschoolers not having (I do know this isn't the case...but I am wondering your thoughts)? I would love to have your input...whenever you aren't too busy!

p.s. Your not me Monday was hilarious today....the bloody nose...that's one for the books, I'll tell you! *hee hee*

So, I sat down to give her an extraordinarily long compact answer to her questions. I thought they would be interesting to post here as well. I am more than willing to answer any questions anyone may have after reading this! :)

I'm very, very pro-home schooling. My parents did it for religious reasons as well as educational. I grew up in a large (well, semi-large) home schooling group. I had a best friend exactly my age and exactly my grade, as well as several other people older and younger than me (mostly younger). The support group was mainly for the parents, discussing curriculum and new laws and field trip opportunities, but it also allowed that oh so important "socialization."

I was also (deep breath here, its a long list) in youth group, girl scouts, gymnastics, soccer, piano lessons, choir (80 miles away mind you, my parents loved me), 4H, and I'm sure there was more. I lived beside my grandparents, and went to craft shows with my mom and grandmother several times a year. I won awards through 4H that no one else in our entire county (public school included) won. I participated in cooking programs through the 4H. My parents signed me up and paid hundreds of dollars a year (I feel guilty now, although I didn't at the time...) and drove 3 hours a week to take me to Lexington, KY so I could be in choir for 5 whole years. I went to 4H camp, church camp, a camp here at Kentucky Christian University (which is the sole reason I attend here) along with a ton more.

I went to public school my Junior year of high school. My sophomore year I took classes at the High School, band, choir and drama. I felt like I wasn't as "smart" as the public school kids, and that I wasn't learning as much. Also, my grandfather passed away my sophomore year of high school, and I needed an escape, a different way of life. So, my mom let me sign up for public school at a small independent high school, that my best friend (and my boyfriend/now husband) went to.

I hated it. I was so, so, so, so, so bored. The immaturity of the people around me drove me CRAZY. I had already been to prom (that school has you go to prom all 4 years, I graduated with 20 something students) and wasn't really missing anything. I stuck it out my Junior year because of different trips and stuff. Also, if you were a high school student, you got to take free college classes, which I was very excited about.

I had no intention of going back my senior year, except that in May of 2004 my grandmother was diagnosed with lung cancer. By the end of the summer she was completely debilitated She had a very rare condition where her nervous system reacted badly to the chemo, and by the end of July, she couldn't walk or feed herself. My mother, who is a RN began taking care of her, along with my step-grandfather. I went back to public school my senior year to stay out of my mom's hair and to be able to take the college courses. I worked it out so that I went to class for the first half of the day, and then either came home to "co-op" at Mom's quilt shop, or went to college classes, depending on the day. I kept up the entire house, I did laundry, cooked, did dishes, vacuumed, everything. Mom as spending 20-24 hours a day next door at Mamaw's, and someone had to keep the house running.

My senior year, I had over 130 tardies or absenses due mainly to my Grama. I live in a very small town, and I could call in the school and be like "Mamaw's having a bad day" and the principal (who had been my band direction Sophomore and Junior year) would sign me in, and I still passed all my classes with A's (excluding Spanish, which we won't discuss the two C's I received in that class, grrr...) and got an A and a B in my college classes. I went to prom, and I went on JR/SR trip. I received a full tuition scholarship to Eastern Kentucky University, along with a variety of other scholarships.

In conclusion, when I was in junior high, I felt like I was such a deprived child. I wanted to go to a "real school." But, looking bad... I wouldn't change it. I got the best education and I was a very unmotivated student. The best part? My mom is my best friend, and was all throughout high school. I never had the trust issues that my friends had, because my Mom and I were so close. I have problem solving skills that no one I know (except other home schoolers) have.

My husband is kind of iffy about home schooling. In high school, we broke up over home schooling. But, he has agreed that I can "have" the children until around 5th grade. We've discussed me getting them for longer, especially considering what school district me move into. It is very, very important to me that I shelter them like I was sheltered. I wasn't as sheltered as a lot of our friends in the group, but I also didn't know what the F word was until I got to public school. I honestly don't have a problem with that. I knew about sex from my mom's romance novels, but I didn't know a lot of the crudities until I got to public school. And whats sad, is that these students learned them in grade school. I refuse for that to be my children.

I am SO SORRY this is so long! Home schooling is my soap box. I'm passionate about home school, adoption and abortion (well, and a lot of things, but those are the biggies). I hate the negative rap that home schooling gets. I hate the way people look at home schooled children as "weird" or "different". I am one of like 3 people from my graduating class who can start a conversation with any age group because I was never age segregated.

I digress.

Hope that didn't scare anyone off TOO badly.

Also, thank you Melanie for letting me know that my comments were not working! I'm excited they are back up and running!

I'm headed off to plan a menu for dinner tomorrow, we're having a newly married couple over for dinner, and I've got to see what I can whip up.

I'm making dessert won-tons I know, anyone want to know how they turn out?

Not Me! Monday (and a good one, I promise)

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Ah, this past week... lets see...

I definitely do not wake up every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 8:30 am, only to call my husband (who by this point, is laying on the couch so his alarm going off every 10 minutes since 6 am doesn't wake me up...) so that I don't have to get up in the cold apartment and walk the 20ish feet to go make sure he's awake.... nope, not me!

I also did not get an intense craving for Taco Bell on Wednesday night around 11, and when Carl and I went to try and appease said craving, we definitely didn't see a view of our hometown completely without power. Nor did we continue to drive around, looking at the darkness that was, and the 2 firetrucks blocking traffic going to a gas station...and wonder why they were doing such a thing. Nope, not me!

Also, (cover the little ones eyes here), while my husband and I were having marital relations this week, I did not think he was merely sweating on me, per usual, to only close my eye and ignore it... then when we were, *ahem*, finished, and he went to turn on the light... he did not stare at me in horror and exclaim "What's wrong??? Are you okay?" to which I replied... "I'm fine...WOAH! Are you okay??"... we most certainly were not covered in blood because my poor, sinus infection riddled husband had not had a bloody nose all over me and the bed.... nope, not me!!!

I did not have to wash our sheets 2 times because my laundress skills are such that I just tried to bleach the sheets... thankfully a combo of shout and oxyclean brought those sheets good and clean! But, I wouldn't have poor laundry skills, Not me!

I did not buy a onesie at Wal-mart yesterday, simply because it was $3 and SO CUTE... and well, I wouldn't do such a thing... not me!

I did notpoutcomplain so much on the drive back to campus yesterday, that my dear husband agreed to do the dishes of the food that had been the refrigerator for more than a week... not me!

Dad and I did not make it to church yesterday morning fifteen minutes before it was over, nope! not us!

We also did not drive around town for a good 20 minutes, surveying storm damage because neither of us get out of the house very often, nope! not me!

And finally, I did not spend the entire week looking forward to Not Me! Monday so that I could share that little nosebleed incident... and after it happened, and I said "You know, I SO have to blog about this.." my husband did not recommend that I save it FOR Not Me! Monday, nope! NOT US!

Now go join the blog carnival! It's fun, I PROMISE!

Sunday, February 15, 2009


I ovulated! Thank you ferility friend.

I threw out one temperature... simply because it was weird..and I don't really remember taking it that maybe I dreamed it. We'll see.

I am very, very cold. I'm making tater tots for myself as a literal midnight snack. Since getting over the sinus infection, I am starving!!!

Sort post tonight, I need to put away the salad fixings, and hit the hay! Maybe I'll be warmer in bed...

Longer post tomorrow for Not me! Monday!

Thursday, February 12, 2009


I got so excited yesterday! I entered in the numbers to and it popped up that I had ovulated on Sunday! Woohoo! Ovulation on day 14! Something that DOES NOT happen in this body (I usually run a 34 day cycle) and then I entered in todays temp, and it went, not in these exact words persay, "Oh, just kidding." and took away my pretty cross hairs. It said I MAY have ovulated but it wasn't sure.

*le sigh*

So, I continue to chart my temps. I just want to know that everything in that area is working...that's my main objective.

I finished my assignments, did my presentation and then kind of chilled out this afternoon. I played some xbox 360 for a little while (Lego Indiana Jones if you must know) then settled down to do some cleaning. After a bleaching, my sheets STILL weren't clean (just wait, you find out why on Monday) so I oxycleaned them and shouted them (thanks Steph! I still have that Shout you gave us!) and Viola! Stain free sheets!

Normally I wouldn't care, but these babies are my 1,000 thread count ones. They're whatever brand Target sells, and I got them for the whopping cost of 6 dollars. I love Grandview Outlet stores!

I also vacuumed (finally), swept and mopped the kitchen floor, and did dishes, did laundry, and cooked dinner. Our bedroom is still as disaster area, but that can be done tomorrow or Sunday.

Why aren't I doing it tonight? So glad you asked. There is a two hour, crossover special of Grey's Anatomy and you better bet I'm going to watch it!

More on my brand new dresser!

Wordless Wednesday (posted on a Thursday)

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Testing? Testing?

Oh, do I have a Not Me Monday post for you next week! You'll either be grossed out, or laugh your butts off....or...both!

Lets just say I had to strip the sheets from our bed, and they are soaking in bleach. That's your only teaser.

I laughed for about a half an hour.

Anyone know how many calories that would burn?

Mkay, testing my new siggy. Cross your fingers!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

About Me

I really don't know what to put here, that hasn't been said in my little blurb. But, I'll write a little more details. :)

I'm a hillbilly and a redneck, and quite proud of it! I was born and raised in South Eastern Kentucky, and absolutely LOVE my home town.

I married my high school sweetheart, Carl, which, if you knew us in high school, you probably are saying "finally!" under your breath.

We had a DIY wedding, and I personally think it was GORGEOUS. All-in-all, it might have cost us a little over $1000.

I had a miscarriage back in November/December of 2008. It was horrible, and it rocked our whole world... but our marriage is stronger because of it.

I work with my Mom in her quilt shop, and I do freelance work in the evenings (article writing, paper editing, proof-reading, etc).

This is totally random, and will get a revamp eventually.
I love to read. I want to write a novel. I love movies (romantic comedies are my favorite!). I love being outside. I love fishing, hiking, etc. I'd love to have a rose garden. I want 3-5 kids. I'm a geek, and a nerd.

Monday, February 9, 2009


Please pray for me... I have 2 large assignments due this week, and I cannot concentrate on anything. I got really sick, and went to "lay down a minute" at 6:30, then got up at 8:30 feeling almost worse. I can breath better than I could on Saturday, or yesterday. And, my heart isn't bothering me nearly as bad, in fact I didn't have any "episodes" today. This is a plus!!

I have to write a paper by Wednesday around 1ish, and then a 30 minute+ power point by Thursday morning at 9:20. The powerpoint will be easier than this effin paper. I'm supposed to write a paper on "How to Read the Bible for all it's worth."

I haven't read the book, except for part of chapter two. Again, can't concentrate. Thankfully, I'm only supposed to read one chapter. Then, I have 2 articles to read as well, then write a 5-7 page paper that answers certain questions.

I am so ready to be out of college. You have no idea how ready I am.

I hate when I feel this way, when I can't concentrate on anything I read, even "pleasure" reading I just want to veg out in front of the TV because that is all I feel like doing.

On top of everything else, I think dinner was a bust. *I* thought it was good, but I don't know how well husband liked it. I made a cold pasta salad. I cooked fettucini and then in the last minute I threw in some carrot and cucumber shavings, then I rinsed them off in cold water, and tossed them with chicken tenders I had cut into bite sized pieces then pan grilled (in my AWESOME ELECTRIC SKILLET!) and then tossed everything with zesty Italian dressing. It was VERY good.

If I haven't already complained about it, I do not have a full sized stove. I absolutely abhor this, and cannot wait until the day I have a full sized stove!!! I love to cook and bake, and this stove is the bane of my existence at times. I can't make a meal come together sometimes because it doesn't heat evenly. I only have 1 big burner, and 3 small ones, but only two pans fit on the stove at one time. Plus, if you bake anything in the oven, it always dips in the middle because the oven doesn't bake evenly.

For our wedding, A member of Carl's family (or...was it a friend of his family? I don't remember) bought us an electric skillet. I was kind of iffy at first, and it didn't make it to my apartment until this semester. I looooooooooove it! I can finally fix a whole meal at once! I usually make the meat in the electric skillet, and use the stove for whatever else I'm making.

I think I'm going to go have some Hummus and baked pita chips, with V8 Fushion juice. Yummy!

Did you like my recipe? Wanna see more? I loooove to cook, and I'm always coming up with recipes of my own, I'd be willing to share!

Meeup Giveaway!!!!!!

Ah, I love this! Go check out 4 Men and Girly Twins for your chance to win an awesome Meeup sling!

Also, as an addition to my Not me Monday! Post...

I have definitely not been at work all day reading other Not Me! Monday posts, nope, Not I!
If you looked under my desk at work, you definitely wouldn't see an array of all the things I've eaten at work today. Nope, Not me!
And finally, I definitely did NOT have Reese's Pieces while at work today! Nope, NOT ME!

Not me! Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Now for my Not me!

I definitely did not lay on the bed for over 4 hours this Saturday, watching horrible movies instead of doing very, very pressing homework. Nope, Not me!

I also didn't play our new Xbox 360 SO MUCH while my husband was away that I went from Level Zero on Kung Fu Panda to finishing the game. Nope, ha! Not me!

Also, in an attempt to lose some of this miscarriage weight, and just be healthier in general, husband and I had decided to try to eat mostly veggies this week. I definitely did not buy 2 bags of Frito Flavor Twists to compliment our veggies. Nope, not me!

I also didn't return from the chiropractor with instructions not to have any coffee because of my heart being out of rhythmn and being too fast, and sit down automatically with a cuppa. Nope, not me!

I also haven't put off vacuuming our apartment for at least 3 weeks now, so that when I babysit I have to sit the baby in a laundry basket so I don't have to worry about what he finds in my floor....nope, not me!

Ah....wasn't that fun? Head over to MckMama's blog, look at the rest of the posts, and write your own!!

Saturday, February 7, 2009


I should be asleep right now...and will be very soon. I just wanted to write a few short movie reviews.

The House Bunny
Don't waste your money. This was a movie that looked kind of cute, and tried really, really reaaaaaaaaaaally hard. It just managed to fail. Miserably.

Sure, there are good lessons to be learned. It's whats on the inside that counts. Looks aren't everything. Hugh Heffner gets tragically depressed when one of his bunnies leaves him. Right...

But the movie stunk. I was ready to murderize the two main female characters. I'm sure the writers meant to make them endearing, and not cringingly annonying, but he didn't do a very good job.

End of story, didn't like it.

The Women

This one was better. But it won't get added to my large movie collection. Meg Ryan's character was a shallow, vapid (haha... if you've seen House Bunny, you should get that...)individual who hasn't made time for her husband, her daughter, or herself for years. She learns (as does her friends) that her husband is having an affair with Evan Mendes character. She kicks him out and manages to find herself with a little help from her friends.

Okay, seriously. Have we not done this plot before? And, I could live with the plot line if the movie had good characters... but it doesn't. They are all cliche. Meg Ryan's character of never putting herself first and always trying to please everyone else. Her best friend's (I didn't recognize the actress, sorry) character of trying to be the successful woman and not needing a man. Debra Messing is the messy looking, over frazzled mom with too many babies and who only thinks about her kids (which makes me wanna shake my fist at Hollywood for making this a bad thing) Jada Pinkett Smith is the lesbian. All of the characters were completely flat and boring.

It kind of ticked me off that both movies were bad. I had a lot of homework to do this weekend, yet I have felt absolutely horrible. I went with my parents to Wal-mart earlier in the day, and fell asleep in the car on the way home. As soon as we got to the house, I went and crawled in bed.

My heart is racing, for whatever reason. It normally runs about 70 and its going 100-120 right now. I have a horrific headache, a lot of sinus pressure, and I can't breath (not like, gasping for breath, I just feel tight chested and short of breath) I used my inhaler and it helped a tiny, tiny bit. I'm going to have Doc listen to my heart tomorrow. I feel like my neck is out really badly, and I'm praying she helps it tomorrow!

I get to see my husband tomorrow! He's been gone since about 6 am on Thursday morning.

Continue to pray for us, and for some upcoming trials and decisions!

I leave you with my chart hell. Seriously. What is going on down there?

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

It's not just cold outside...

God is really testing me it seems. I've always considered myself fairly strong of faith, but here recently God is laying out opsticles that seem to be stressing me out more than ever.

I don't want to mention some of them, as dear husband and I are merely beginning to discuss them. But they involve change, and a rather large change at that. Instead of scaring me like it should, that change exhilirates me and has me so excited I want to burst. I also feel very at peace with it. The only bad thing is I can't plan, and if you know me in real life, you know I like to have a least on the big stuff. It's stressing me out to not have said plan, to not be able to go "Okay, but on this day we'll be here." I'm really having to struggle to give it over to God. It's all on his (and ultimately Carl's) shoulders. Other than paperwork stuff, I have absolutely nothing to do with this decision, or the events that would lead up to this decision, and that stresses me out too!

Secondly, and this stems from the first one as well... we have baby fever. We both want to be pregnant right now. Neither of us wants to wait until April. However, back to "the plan." Do we wait anyway? But, where will we be in Jan/Feb of 2010? Do we try? Is it going against God's will to try? What IS God's will in this situation? If we try not to get pregnant, is that going against God's will? How in the heck do we know what God's will is in this situation? Yet another stressor! I don't want to miscarry again, and I don't want to put us in a financial situation that we can't afford, especially in these financially unstable times. Peanut A worked out wonderfully because I would be giving birth in June, between semesters. If we got pregnant this month, I'd be giving birth in November, which wouldn't work out well. However, other factors have it weighing on my heart that I should try and get pregnant this month. How do we know what God's plan is? Would he allow us to get pregnant if it wasn't in his will? By us trying to get pregnant, are we going against his will? These are all questions that have been floating in my mind all day.

I have 2 classes to go after this semester. Theoretically I don't have to take them at KCU and could just transfer them in. If Carl doens't stay at KCU next semester, that's probably what I'll do. But it's just so hard! We received an email asking us about our plans for summer residency today and I just wanted to scream. "I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!!"

First step, Husband needs to take his ACT again. He's signed up for it, I just don't know when he's supposed to take it. That, I guess, should be my main concern right now. I just don't know what to do about the pregnancy issue. Common sense and responsibility tell me that we shouldn't try for YEARS... but our hearts are aching for us to not listen to common sense.

Alright, there's my depressing, confused post of the day. I may try and write something more upbeat, like a movie review for My Best Friend's Girl later this evening... when I'm not reading the 60 pages I have due for World Religions tomorrow that is!


Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Temperatures rising

Ah, the sound of a thermometer beeping is becoming a well known sound in our apartment! Normally we only hear it at 8 am when I wake up to chart my temps, but today it's been heard several times throughout.

Yesterday (and today!) Carl was sporting a lovely temp of 102.3. He went to see Gina, our LOVELY school nurse yesterday. She gave him some Alka seltzer (spelling?) and *snorts* Pedialite (he complained that a big burly man shouldn't drink Pedialite so I got him some Gatorade today). I begged and pleaded and coerced asked him to go to the doctor today, and he did. He has an ear infection (and now a sore butt thanks to the shots) and the flu.

He's supposed to leave at 6:45 am on Thursday morning to go partake in KMEA. Pray he gets to feeling better! He really loved KMEA!

I ventured to the Dollar Store today to get some much needed tissues (I STILL have my sinus infection...only its worse now. You best be believing I'm googling a Netti Pot here soon). I'm DESPERATELY trying to stay off of anti-biotics. I'm planning on doing a Colin cleanse next week, followed by a gallbladder cleanse. Whenever God grants us another pregnancy, I want my body to be an open vessel and a very, very healthy one!

My husband should be very happy, on top of getting an Xbox 360 last week, we also purchased a pen lathe. He spent the majority of the weekend out it my grandpa's workshop, being a busy little bee.

However, when we went to Lexington on Friday to purchase said lathe, we met up with my sister, Heb and her boyfriend Donnie. After spending a little time over dinner talking, we went to Donnie's house to see the biggest flat screen television I have ever seen. It was getting a little late, and we were driving Mom's van, so we ended up staying over. It was wonderful spending time with my sister, getting to know Donnie better, and just hanging out! I played a Wii for the first time and decided I was very happy we hadn't got one, and then we made brownies! It was a lot of fun!

Again, I'm drowning in homework. How do I let myself get so backed up? Senoritis at its finest!
- Outline for Stepp on "V.Basic Proposals Toward a NT Theology" due tomorrow
- Paper for Stepp over "How to Read the Bible For All It's Worth" due a 2/11
- Powerpoint Presentation for Durst over the Desert Fathers chapter due 2/12
- My first Independent study assignment, which I dunno what it entails due thursday


I've been in the bedroom "doing homework" since 7 something. Ask me if any of its done.

Lighter note: I made fresh homemade pizza (dough from scratch thank you very much. Today, as well as Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies. Anyone interested in the recipe? They were/are delish!